Okay, well Me and my boyfriend have a long distant relationship of 3 years but now a family member move near him so i could now see him some weekends, but the thing is we haven't had any sexual gratification. He always brings it up but that whole topic gets me nervous and uneasy, to be honest i have low self-esteem and no confident at all, its a scary thought that he wont like it, or I hurt him in anyway. He's had experience I don't :( i really do love him but just thinking about having sex with him gives me a strong heavy feeling in my chest. He always say he'll wait for me but i want to be ready, but i just cant stop this uneasy feeling. Please give me some advise.