i am constantly overwhelmed by the thought of me and my family dying. i cry almost everyday and it is starting to distract me from doing simple things. i never had faced this problem until i was 14 really. At the age of 12 it first started, i was sitting on the couch with my mom watching a television show, in the show one of the characters family members had passed away and i had thought about it for like 30 minutes afterword. my mom had went upstairs and i stayed on the couch. out of no where i just started bawling and my mom came down stairs and tried to comfort me but i just kept crying and spilling out all my thoughts. now till this day i usually cry everyday and i'm just horrified over it. i'm not really religious at all but i am a christian and i just ask my self, "why put me on this earth for me just too get old and die away and never remember any of the ones i spent nights crying over? i'm so scared of this thought how can i overcome it help please?!