i just got out of a toxic relationship about two weeks ago. i didnt realize how badly he treated me until he gave me mono and i was sick in the hospital for five days. he would tell me disgusting things like "i hope youre not old fashioned and have a bush" and
"my brothers wife sucks his dick, why cant you suck mine" he got physical towards the end like pulling my pants down when his family was in the house and i was going up the stairs, and we would be laying on the couch and he would push my head towards his pants saying "one dolla sucky sucky". there was so much more but to keep it short i have flashbacks and i cant stop thinking about it and im just afraid to be with a man. i thought this was normal but it wasnt. my friends tell me i was abused, what kind of abuse was this so i can help myself understand more... thank you!