I'm afraid of becoming depressed, and I can assure you, I'm well on my way. I have some health issues that just are not improving. I'm finding that doctors have deaf ears, saying they don't know the cause, etc.etc. While I don't have anything life threatening, my quality of life isn't good, and I'm starting to lose interest in things that I enjoy.
My advocate is away; and has been for 2 weeks now, and I don't know when she'll be back.There are time when I think my best friend doesn't want to know anymore. A close friend told me that he said to her that he'd call me today (just as she was falling asleep), but according to him she didn't seem interested. She knew last night that I was just "OK" by the sound of my voice. It's now 1.52pm and I haven't heard from her. Normally she would tell me she'd call tomorrow (meaning today). Again, I haven't heard anything. I'm at the point that I don't want to share these things with her anymore.
I certainly don't want depression setting in; but I feel I'm all alone in my problems. Every time I want to make an appointment to see my doctor; the weather is bad; either where I live, or where his office is located. I won't go to walk-in clinic or hospital & sit for hours on end. I don't have any faith whatsoever in the hospital in my city.
I'm open to any & all suggestions you may have.