Look, I'm a 21 year old woman; I'm married and have a kid, and this has been bothering the living hell out of me.
I always get super close (at least I think so) but then... NOTHING!
I've had sex with a total of 13 people since I lost my virginity at 18 and not a soul can get me to do it. Sadly, not even my husband (but I can never tell him cause he'll get all mad and depressed and I don't wanna deal with the pity me party).
Even during our recent separation, I had been with several men and still, nothing.
I've tried different positions (some better than others; but to no avail) and I've tried vibrators and watching porn and god! Everything! But I just can't seem to orgasm.
I don't know if it's because I have a didelphys (probably spelling it wrong) uterus; which means I have a wall down my uterus creating two instead of one (literally, I can feel it separate when I stick my finger in), or because every time I have sex, somehow even after giving birth to my daughter last year, I get as tight as a virgin. I don't know what it is. But I'm tired of faking it to these stupid ass men and myself.
I know I get super close when using a vibrator but my hand cramps up and it feels so good my legs and hips shake and I have to stop even though I know I haven't had one yet. Same with the only guy that ever brought me close enough just by going down on me and fingering me. I begged him to stop because I got so close but nothing happened.
Should I just accept that it'll never happen...?
I apologize for being graphic but I am very frustrated. I sorta consider myself a nympho but now... I can't even enjoy sex anymore..
Please... Any advice is welcome.