I got into a heated argument with my mom and pushed her i regret it cause it was over something so stupid but when i worked up the courage to apologize she said "i forgive you but thats something a child should never do and that i should ask god for forgivness cause he will shorten my life" which made me feel like my apology meant nothing this isnt the first time ive gotten in a heated argument with her but this is the first time i really felt she didnt care about an apology i deal with deppresion and this is making me even more depressed and alone idk what to do anymore some times i think about just giving up and taking my life for all the wrong ive done but i never work up the courage to im just tired of feeling like shit does anyone have any advice