the most difficult thing about this is being alone. right now i feel i'm stuck in rut. i do have friends but usually i can only see them on sundays. which is why i've talked about high school a few times. that was when i had alot of my best friends. right now i feel like i can't get organised. i constantly get too many ideas or racing thoughts. sometimes i don't know what's real and ask myself questions that are too difficult to answer.