I'm currently struggling with my sexuality. For the longest time I've only been interested in men. As I grew older though, I found myself noticing women more and more. As a feminist, I have a hard time relating to men. I'm openly supportive of gay relationships and believe that everyone has the right to choose their partner. I prefer female qualities, but still find some men attractive. I've never dated a woman before but my relationships with men never ended well. I find myself dreaming about female relationships and often fantasize what one would be like, but I still don't know where I stand. Please help! Any advice is welcome.
You can relieve your soul and move forward by digesting all your experience until now by realizing all is positive since you are here and the only real negative is somewhat confusion. Most of us are stuck in the conversation "I hurt, I am angry, I..." Step out of the "All about me" programming. Do not label yourself lesbian, straight or bi (or alien from another planet.) after all who knows. As long as you are honest with you and whom ever you are with at the time, the other person is getting a powerful you, a beautiful you. If the other person doesn't experience that, then they are in their "All about me" suit. Life is too short to hang with one whose main existence is focused on themselves. I feel from your question you give your all or want to and that's all there is until you take that next step with any person. You will succeed and it won't be yonder. I say this because I am right 95% of the time with everybody I know as apposed to a low percentage when it comes to myself. That's OK with me. Make sense? It will be fine.