I don't sleep often when I do I have very vivid dreams. They seem as if it's really happening to another me as if it's from a parallel universe in which I can do what I want. I forget my train of thought very easily and I talk to people through scenarios as if the scenario was happening. I know that the people aren't there but I speak to them as if they were and the scenarios I'm indulging in are very unrealistic and probably couldn't happen to me. I spend most of my time watching movies because I feel disconnected to other people. My brother hates me and I can't understand why but it seems to be reasonable. Most of the movies I watch are romantic movies because I want to fall in love but I'm so distanced from people that I won't let them close to the real me I don't want them to hurt me emotionally. I feel like people want to make me sad because I'm not like they are. Why?