Throughout 3-2 yearsI used to be a girl who was easily laughed at, I was also immature for doing some meaningless things, talking to the wrong guys too. I made lots of mistakes in my life which led people to talk about me behind my back. I got into a relationship with someone I really loved but people ruined it by talking about me and insulting me. Eversince those incidents, I feel like I’m no longer this excited girl to stay alive. I feel like I just don’t belong here and everybody hates me. I’ve changed a lot and it’s been 1 year since i havent spoke to a guy because Im technically scared to be with someone who would judge me based on what people say. I’m now extremely nice to everyone, i don’t gossip about anyone, and im fully aware of what i do and how i act. However, i wake up everyday feeling paranoid. If someone avoids me i get really paranoid and begin on wondering. I really want to get out of this and sometimes i just wanna leave this country in order to start with a new page but it’s not that easy to do so. I’ve never hurt anyone but I don’t get why people are full of hate.. I respect everyone and help anyone who is in need, too. I just need help with knowing how to solve this. I want people to stop talking about me because it’s ruining my reputation and affecting my happiness in life if anyone can please help me how to get out of this i would really appreciate it
You are correct, some people are thoughtless, unkind and just plain mean. You are not the first and will not be the last to be treated this way. I once had a similar problem. Usually an insecure, selfish person will put another person down to make themselves feel like they are something.
I cried and prayed about this because I felt like an outcast. Then I was introduced to the Bible and a group of people that live by it's principles. That changed my life. Sometimes it's not just you that needs to change, but rather it the environment of the people and surroundings that need to be changed
I started studying the Bible, with Jehovah's Witnesses, which helped me in many ways.
I gained better friendship, more positive, I felt better about myself, because I now have a real purpose in life. most of all I have something to look forward to.
I'm not telling you to do this but, checking it out for yourself can only improve your situation. check out jw.org subject: What’s a Real Friend?
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Hope this was helpful.