I have a male friend I think I fell attracted to. And I guess he likes me back because of the way he looks at me. He even gets unconfortable if I talk about another guys. But phisically he isn't the kind of guy I would like. I mean, I love weirdos but not in the ways he is. I feel I 'd never be ready to introduce him as my significant other. In fact many aspects of his personality are unkind and they don't fit with mine. But I think about us major of the time and I hate myself for being so fool. I often ask myself "Really? Are you thiking him in that way? Him? No way"But when I stand by him I want him to hold me. Even kiss me. And I feel so stupid after feeling that. Maybe my ideal perfect match is too unreal and probably I just have to let it go. But then I think he will appear one of those days. Why my head is such a bitch?