So this is not the first time I'm dieting...I've been doing it since I was 11 where I weighed 50kg. Now I'm 14 and I weigh 63kg. Of course I know when you need to lose weight you don't have to just eat specific things for a few months and exercise but make it a lifestyle! But I just can't do it anymore and I'm tearing up right now and I've never been able to "stick to it" forever. I ate a lot since winters and now its February and just today I've started my diet where I should've been happy and motivated and all that but I'm not. I want to be slim and thin but I also want to eat all these toxic things that make you fat. I do not resist my cravings and deprive myself from food and this morning I was craving for a peanut butter and jelly sandwich that my mom, after a long time bought in the house(jelly and peanut butter) and I ate a large slice and since then I've had vegetables and fruits and green tea but I'm only hungry for that sandwich again and I want to eat at least 6-10 slices of that and I don't have any will power or resistance and my mom decided to hide it to help me and now its not in front of me but my heart knows its somewhere in the house and I'm aching to eat it again and again and I'm full on crying right now and I just can't do this anymore