So I am a 18 year old female, and I have been getting help for my mental health. I have been really anxious my whole life. I decided to get help since I had a weird sense of what is right or wrong and I hated it. My ideas aren’t “normal,” like how I should care about someone dog dying. I literally laughed in the person’s face. I guess that was weird... I should mention that was after meds, but I always didn’t care about animals. Now after I been medicated, I don’t have any anxiety, and I have realized that I was stupid for worrying about this stuff since whatever is right or wrong is all socially constructed. Therefore, I believe that there is nothing wrong I can do. I believe most of these ideas are stupid so I am going against these rules in society. The problem is for my whole life I was so concerned about the rules to the point where I would have panic attacks if someone broke the rules. Now I’m breaking them. It might be the meds, but it’s just really weird. If you have any insight, please answer this.
I suddenly have sociopathic tendencies at age 18. Am I a sociopath or is it something else?
Added 3+ months ago:
I should also mention that I have taken a test for different personal disorders and I am going to find out the results soon. The only reason I mention APD is because my therapist did.
The first line of defense against depression and anxiety is B vitamins. Get B-50 or B-100 pills. Vitamin B2 is a water soluble dye that turns urine bright yellow. When the color fades, it's time for another dose. Read some books about nutrition so you know how to eat right.
Take acting classes so you can learn to act normal. And please remember that almost everything you have learned about rules, you learned from other children. You are not a child any more, so you need to reconsider everything you know and make up new rules that apply to adults.
You should tell your psychiatrist about this. Since effects have appeared only after the meds, they are most likely to blame. Complete loss of inhibition is a possibility when altering the mind's chemically, yet hardly desirable (for your sake first and foremost), and neither is panicking.
As a side note, notwithstanding frequency of nonconformism around this age, it's normally more akin to testing the blurry boundaries than losing sight of them altogether.
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