... really believe in science... i know its a stupid question.. but im in a dilemma part
Read a chapter of Proverbs every day. Proverbs has 31 chapters so you can keep your place by just looking at a calendar. There is no religion or nothing in Proverbs and you don't have to believe anything. Just read every day. When you are comfortable with that, then read the bible from Romans to 2 Thessalonians over and over until you start to remember what it says. That is the part that applies to Christians.
After a few weeks of this, you know more than most ministers, because they never studied the bible. They only studied how to be ministers. So you have to exercise good manners to avoid arguments. You don't need to argue with somebdy who already is a believer, and for everybody else you only need to tell them what the bible says. You are not responsible to persuade them to believe it.
Don't waste your time on science. It is a mess these days. They will tell you that science is based on asking questions, and then insult you for asking questions.
I Also recommend reading proverbs because it gives enlightment on various topics. Also read Isaiah. Science is based through studies that sometimes cant be proven for example the big bang theory. In the book of génesis it says that God created the heavens and the earth. I recommend talking to a youth Pastor because they can help you With a lot of questions you may have.
You don't need to do anything for anyone. all you need is an open mind and a open heart. and live everyday as it is your last, but plan fro the future.
If you want a phrase or something to hold onto in life. Hold onto this.
"Love your neighbour as you love yourself" they only phrase you need out of the Bible, everything else is not needed.
"The past can hurt. But, you can either run from it, or... learn from it" and continue to more forward.
First, let's cover the question of "Is there really a god?"
Not one person has a realistic answer to this question. A lot have faith and they believe, and they believe that what they witness is evidence. However, the vast majority, if not all of it, can be placed under coincidence or self-fulfilling. The only answer that can be given, in full honesty, is, "I don't know." There is no way to 100% prove or disprove the existence of beings beyond our reality. It's just how our brains have evolved. We cannot perceive things beyond what we consider to be a part of our reality.
That being said, religion is something you should study up on. Don't jump right into one, but definitely look them up and read about them. Every culture's religions are unique, and really give a good incite into the values of their ancestors.
Also, don't ever think that religion and science cannot co-exist. There are many people on this planet who believe in a god (or gods) that created the universe and all of the things in it but that this being(s) did so through natural causes, like the big bang and evolution. It all still fits, as long as you don't follow any holy book, literally.
The most important thing is to be true to yourself. If you do not believe in a god, you are an Atheist. If you do, you are a Theist. Regardless which one you are, if you don't believe you have the 100% undeniable answer (which you never should) then you are an Agnostic, as well as either an Atheist or Theist. All of these labels, all of these definitions, they are all descriptors of your state of mind, not groups of people you have to strictly adhere to. As long as you are true to yourself, as long as you think for yourself, you can flow between all labels, and still be seeking the truth.
I hope that settled a lot of your confusion. :)
“Is religion best understood as an infectious disease of the mind?”—Biologist Richard Dawkins.
RELIGION and science are sometimes assumed to be mortal enemies. To some they appear locked in a struggle of such magnitude that it may seem that one will triumph only by the death of the other.
In one camp are some scientists, such as chemist Peter Atkins, who feel that reconciling religion and science is “impossible.” Atkins says that to believe “that God is an explanation (of anything, let alone everything) is intellectually contemptible.”
In another camp are religious people who blame science for the destruction of faith. Such individuals hold to the opinion that science as practiced today is a deception; its facts may be correct, but the misinterpretation of those facts undermines the beliefs of the faithful. For instance, biologist William Provine says that Darwinism means “no ultimate foundation for ethics; no ultimate meaning for life.”
However, some of the conflict has developed because of false or unprovable assertions originating from both sides. For centuries, religious leaders have taught mythical legends and erroneous dogmas that are at odds with modern scientific findings and not based on inspired Scripture. For example, the Roman Catholic Church condemned Galileo because he concluded, correctly, that the earth revolves around the sun. Galileo’s view in no way contradicted the Bible, but it was contrary to what the church taught at the time. On the other hand, scientists are at fault when they teach as fact the unprovable theory that life evolved from inanimate matter independent of God. They ridicule religious faith as unscientific.
It is possible to reconcile science and religion because it actually, prove science and true religion complement rather than contradict each other.
For more information on this subject and others, please go to jw.org official website "online Library." Also for free downloads, publications or read online. You can read online the book "Mankind Search for God" and "Life How did it get here by Evolution or by Creation"