i know this will seem odd to some, but i am in love with a guy who probably doesn't even know i exist. he's the most beautiful thing i've ever seen and it's killing me.
i've talked to people about it; they told me that it was just an infatuation, but four years later, i'm still mad about him.
not a minute goes by that i don't think about him. i'm getting really depressed because i know i have absolutely no chance of being with him.
i'm not asking if this is love or not. i'm asking what i can do because this is affecting me horribly. i can't even be in any proper relationships because this guy is the only one i want.
please help!

PS... there's no way i can even talk to him. i moved to the states a year ago from england. he's in england and i have no way of contacting him.