What is this strange feeling/sensation I struggle to describe?
It goes as far back as I can remember. And as far as I can tell it doesn't seem to have a pattern or correlation to my environment or emotions. For a long time I seriously considered that it was something paranormal. I cant really say that it's a physical feeling on/in my body yet its definitely physical in some kind of way. It's not an emotion or thought but a very physical feeling somewhere in my body that i can't quite locate. Which of course led me to believe that it was possibly my soul? I struggle so hard to describe what it feels like cause I just never feel like I can word it justifiably...
I guess I could say that it feels like something physicsl inside of me is separate from me and every so often I can almost numbly feel it's growth or just presence. Sometimes it feels small and sometimes it feels too big for whatevers holding it. That's the closest I can explain it but honestly youd have to feel it yourself to do it any justice with word's. I cannot find answers to this anywhere and I'm desperate to hear the explanation.
But it's as real to me as any other sensation I've felt
What the hell is it?