I can't stay outside for long. I can't stay inside for long. How do I balance this. And the activities don't matter, I can be doing anything and I'll feel the same way.
The first line of defense against depression and anxiety is B vitamins. Get nutritional yeast powder and/or B-100 pills. Vitamin B2 is a water soluble dye that turns urine bright yellow. When the color fades, it's time for another dose. Read some books about nutrition so you know how to eat right.