I have an extreme urge to run around and talk nonstop, even if I don't want to or are not in the mood. Then out of nowhere I get depressed and nothing in the world could cheer me up and I want everyone to go away. After that depression is over, a feeling of joy sets in and I feel as though I could do anything, accomplish anything.
That's a cycle for me in everyday life.
Something else that's weird about me, I can't stand having big bags of food or 2 liters or basically anything that isn't in a small container. If someone gifts me something that is family size, after opening it, I feel like I have to eat all of it at once and make it gone. I cannot eat some of it and then leave half. I can't throw it away, if I do I will keep thinking about it again and again. If I feel sick or not in the mood to eat it, it doesn't matter, I have to keep eating it.
There's another thing that bothers me, I get strange impulsions to do things I don't want to, and will never, do. If I'm standing at the edge of a bridge, I have a strong urge to jump, not that I would or want to, I just have the impulse to do it. If someone hands me an important document or paper I have the urge to rip it up. If I'm by a knife, an image pops up in my mind where I stab myself repeatedly. Please note, I am not suicidal nor do I have any psychopathic tendencies, I would never hurt myself or others, there are just these bad thoughts that get stuck on repeat and I can't make them go away. I don't know what's wrong with me.