I am a 15 year old girl, diagnosed with major depressive disorder. I am 75mg of Zoloft to deal with this problem. I have used a few different kind of drugs recreationally but, I have stopped. I am failing everything in school and have no motivation no matter how hard my parents and teachers push me. I have met my end. I should be doing work and trying now but it's like I can't. I have been on my meds for a month and I feel better. I actually feel happy sometimes and I don't want to kill myself as much as I did. Suicidal thoughts have crossed my mind much less and I am starting to see how abnormal my thinking was. I just don't know how to make myself care about my future and I just get so angry at myself. Please help me.