I'm 15 a freshman in highschool. I've been really depressed lately and realize I want to do something with my life. I want to be a professional violinist. I've had some experience in grade school. 4-7th grade. I feel like I didn't learn enough. I still have my violin and I am willing to put 4+ hours into it everyday. I just don't know where to start. I feel like I can read all of the notes but I have trouble with the flats and sharps and I only know the first position and I can't do vibrato. I had to move schools and they don't have a music program. I am extremely depressed at this point because I feel like music is my passion and I need a teacher to help me. Maybe I should start paying for lessons??? It's going to take a while to actually get a teacher. I don't want to waste anymore time