i am a 20-year-old girl.its my secret i never tell anyone around me and it will nerver happen. i am easy to be shy and nervous when i meet good looking boys,and dont want to talk to them.but i know i do want to talk to them and make friends with them, but i just cant make it.
when i was in high school,some guys in my class were really mean.they abused me at any time they can,calling me"ugly monster".and everytime i passed by them,they would make sure they wouldnt touch me like i was a kind of virus.that really hurted me! till now i dont have couragement to talk with any boys over 5 minutes cuz i dont want them find i am ugly. i feel everything i do is trying to make boys not have terrible impression on me.i cant be myself.i dont no what to do.i think if i keep being this way,i will never get any relationships,that will upset me.plz help me.what can i do to get over my shyness and nervousness.
ps.i notice that its easy for me to impress every girl i meet and get along well with them.