I know that so many people ask the same question I do. But my question goes beyond physical and mental. I know I am mentally sound even though I watch my world crumble before me. I've been threw hell and back and the only person that would stick by my side was my mother. You wouldn't expect a seventeen year old girl to ask what's her purpose in life. But I have come to that point and I've been stuck ever since. I'm not like the kids I see at my school. I don't need the newest trending thing. In fact I love to stay away from all that stuff. I am known as the lone wolf. I hunt alone and I fight my own battles. When I was four my father passed away. I was really messed up in the head and to make matters worse I was mentally abused at the same time. My memory's were pretty much destroyed to where I can't remember past two years ago. It was only a couple months ago when I began to feel the changes deep within. It was like a fog was lifted but underneath was only more fog. Can you be reborn into a different person entirely? I know I don't belong in this world and I know it was not meant for me. I'm not suicidal if any of you were thinking that. I just know for a fact that I'm different then most people I just want to find out why. I need insight a guidance from an outside force. From what you read so far I'm not going to take anyone's shit. Pardon my language, but its true. I am actually looking for at least the slightest help. My words will be limitless if you need additional info. I couldn't tell you all the reasons why I feel this way. Lend me your voice, give me your opinions maybe then I could begin to fit the puzzle pieces together. I'm expecting you to answer the question literally but from what you read about me... Can you tell I'm different?
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I teach at a local high school in Hungary, I have one boy in my class whose parents literally abandonded him at the age of 9, they dumped him at a gas station. I have three girls in another class who are in an SOS school because their parents are drug addicts and divorced, one girl was made to pimp for her mother. Another boy, 13, was "abused" by his father and beaten by his mother, another 16 yr old girl is essentially a mother to 6 younger sisters and brothers because their dad died at 40 and their mother turned to drink...
I could go on... however, you're 17, you have issues. All the children I've mentioned above are slogging through a physical and mental hell you cannot imagine and they are winning!
You can do the same.
ok.... you don't have a purpose, no one does, you're born, you live, you die.. everything you do is meaningless when you consider the universe and it's size.. we are specks of nothingness on a velvet cloth we cannot even begin to comprehend the extent of. Sooooo... enjoy this brief moment of existence because it's the only one you're going to get.
Haha nice thing to say to a seventeen year old girl. But again you were no help go and try to bring someone else down. Cause it not going to work with me. Haha really, now go about your business.
I think that you are seeking meaning to your life through artful philosophy, which is a great thing to do. Everyone will reach this at some point some earlier and some later than others. Yes, you are different, you see that you are not like your peers, but in doing so you are also just like everyone else. Yes, I know, circular dilemma, but that's life. I think that you would relate well to Buddhism, which teaches to accept suffering as part of life and to grow as a better more caring and intelligent person from it.
We all will come to the realization that we are alone and that we are different eventually. We ourselves are but islands that share the same sea, some islands will experience more hardships, while others will prosper from fertile soil. Some, like yourself, may house exotic species and feelings, while others will simply look to others for guidance in hopes to be one continent and feel like something bigger.
The dilemma of the meaning of life hits hardest between 18 and 25, in my experience. This is a time where you accept your childhood for what it is and are seeking to find your foothold in the world either with a job or college or whatever. This is a time of great mental awakening, and you must hold your island strong against the hurricane it must endure.
Thank you so much... As you saw some people had there doubts about me. Everything you say I completely understand. I'm not doing this just for me alot of people don't know who they truly are. I was hoping that when I do finally understand the changes I could help others who feel the same as I. Again this was much appreciated.
If you want to help others who have experiences similar to yourself, create a blog or something to share your experiences and potentially reach others like yourself (Or simply answer questions online ;) I have decided to become a teacher to reach students like yourself, this could be an option for you or becoming a councilor for a school or even a community organization such as the YMCA or Big Brother/Big Sister Programs. If you really want to give back, I commend you for taking your experiences and making them a positive.
I don't think you get what I'm trying to say I suffer, the world suffer you don't think I already know this stuff. I'm wise beyond my years. I don't fell pity for my self I know I'm seventeen. I want to make this world right and I don't want people to suffer. It isn't fun... Believe me I already know people have it harder then I do. I'm sorry to hear about your students nobody deserves to go though something like that. Believe me when I tell you I have a gift that I want to find out and I'll use it to for only good. I didn't come one here for pity i came her for insight.