I've been depressed for about two years straight, and it's gotten extremely severe these past three months. Over the past year, I've developed an addiction to cutting. I also have a hint of anorexia, and I force myself to eat regularly just so I don't get it although I hate what I see in the mirror. I have nothing to be depressed over; my parents are happily married, and I have some online friends. Nothing dramatic has happened really in my life, and that's what makes me feel guilty for feeling sad, but no matter how much effort I put to be happy or just relaxed, it always fails. No one knows about my cutting, depression, or hint of my ED. I think about suicide a LOT. I think about it throughout the whole day nearly, and I often imagine how people would react, how to do it, when to do it, etc. I just need some answers. Please try your best to relate and/or help me. Thank you.