es in my life and I've been through a lot, my age is 21 but I suffered a lot , my story is that 5 years ago I get admission in a polytechnic diploma of electronics it was suppose to be finished in 3 years but I am not being able to pass them I am still eligibile to gave exams , but the problem is that it wasn't my choice I don't want to go in that field I wanted to be software engineer , so its been 5 years and still its not cleared because I became lazy in those 2 years which I stayed home because I was official finished with the college, I want to get admission in computer science but I need to clear my diploma first but right now I hate those books so much I can't even saw them , being in electronics it was my fathers choice who leave us because of another women and that was main reason of my pain and depression, now I wanna know how can I memorize those books with this much troubled mind?