You see I have anxiety and major depression is my biggest fear. I'm afraid that I might become depressed to the point that I would commit suicide. I fear emotional symptoms, Fear of becoming depressed, going crazy, of unusual feelings and emotions, unusually frightening thoughts. I think it's my anxiety that's making feel like this, but there's always the “what if?" what if it's depression? I don't think I'm depressed because I love my life, my family, myself, I look forward to many things in my life and there is no way in hell that I would ever hurt myself or others. Every time I think about hurting myself or others I get very anxious and panicky. Sometimes I start thinking "what if I get fed up with things in life?" When I have these thoughts I get very panicky because I'm afraid it might lead to depression if I ever get fed up with things I do in my life. I never get fed up with things in my life it’s just the way I think because of my anxiety, basically anything that I think of that can lead to depression I get anxious. I have taken many depression tests and they all say I have no depression. I was so afraid of the word depression that I tried to avoid it because it just made me anxious. I couldn't read or hear about anything that was related to depression because I would start to feel panicky. When I heard about Robin Williams my anxiety was really bad. Am I depressed? Or could I become depressed from fearing it? I heard from people that have anxiety that your greatest fear never comes true. Is that true?