I've been in numerous relationships. And they were all online. And when I'm not in a relationship. It puts me into deep depression. The only way to fix it is to be in a relationship. And its not just with someone in particular. I'm lovesick, because I'm in love with the idea of being in love itself. So much that when a relationship fails.its usually because I push them. Because I want a relationship IRL. And I can't find anyone IRL that I'm into. Im too young to go into bars yet. But will be in November. But I don't think the kind of people that I'd be into would show up in a bar. Especially since I'd be going to a gay bar. And my location isn't very lgbt friendly. And Im shy as hell and have fear of rejection. And I'm kind of at a loss as to how I would go about solving my problem. Like I've said I really want the idea of love itself in my life with someone I really like. But every time I try and do that online. I end up hurt. And it never seems to work out. Any suggestions?