I wouldn't say life is bad, i know there's some kid in guam or something dying of malaria or something who has it worse than me but that's not the problem, I don't care who has it worse than who. I feel like everything in my life will never change no matter how hard I try. I'm just stuck on the track of mediocrity and it will never be anything more or less than what it is. And that makes me feel like its pointless to use the recources to live If my life is never gonna mean anything.