My parents and i have never had that relationship where i can talk to them about anything or where i actually feel like a family. I still love them but I just realized how dumb i have been. Life has been realy hard and i didnt realize how im kinda cutting my family off. I can never talk to them freely because they would always see things in a way i dont mean to present it in. I realized how much i hurt them and i actually sometimes dont even see it. Im really mad at my self and i dont know how to make it up to them. I have amazing parents but i often wonder why they got someone like me. I feel like they deserve better. I have no idea what im gonna do. Most answers are probably gonna be talk to them, but its really hard. I have had thoughts about suicide but i always talk myself out of it. What do i do???