Ive had depression for around four years now and i dont know what to do anymore but i dont want to kill myself or anything i dont see a point in living in a world where my life is pointless i dont care about anything anymore i feel sort of numb to the world around me like ive lost touch with reality i dont think my life is real. I understand that there isnt a meaning to life but idk what to do anymore i feel like ive lost my mind and i need something to life for