I am lost. I have been married for over a decade and we have children. I am not into him though. I think about women to get off and I constantly catch myself looking at women. I even have a woman that is really into me and I am interested.
Am I a lesbian?
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I was a young teen when we met at a party. He is eight years older than me. I was from a Catholic private school and I had a huge weekly allowance. He was a dealer and I had been an addict since I was 13 (I was 16 at the time). He gave me ecstasy one night at knifepoint and then had his way with me several times. I found out I was pregnant and I felt obligated to get married. My family was very strict in baby after marriage.
You're turning yourself into a target if you think an abuser will let you leave when the children grow up. And you're denying yourself your life's direction. If you have lesbian leanings like that, you're going to be happier as a lesbian. Lesbian couples raise children but you'll need to prove your physical abuse or he may get the kids. Likely, he'll come after you and your partner in any number of evil ways. To get away now, you'll need a righteous lawyer and maybe a home for abused women where he can't find you or the children. You've been drugged, raped, beaten, verbally and emotionally abused and you want to remain a slave. Get out, live your life like you want. Your husband is a waste of time. And, at least get some advive from a center for abused women.
Well, you may or may not be lesbian. Lots of people sometimes are attracted to or have some type of feelings for someone of the same gender, but are heterosexual (straight). Really, though, I'd focus on getting you and your children away from your husband.
After all is said and done, though, whether you are lesbian or not, your kids will still love you, and maybe you should go out with the woman you are interested in.
This makes me so angry. If you are not happy, you neeeed to leave him. Happiness comes first. It's better for the kids to see both of you happy and separated instead of angry/sad and together.
As for the lesbian thing, you might just feel an intolerance to men right now with the type of figure your husband is. If you do decide to leave him there is nothing wrong with experimenting. Good Luck!
Dang girl, your with someone who's abusive? Get away from him. You children should understand. Plus, you'll still have your kids. If you get off just by thinking of a woman, then I think you probably are a lesbian :) Go get the girl who's into you and leave the dude :) I'm sure you'll be happier. You should probably talk to your children about it first if their old enough to understand. Good Luck :)
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