I'm only 15. I'm a guy. I really want you guys to understand how I'm feeling and tell me how I can change. The last few years, I've been always been shy and introverted. I'd call myself socially awkward sometimes. When I first moved to Canada I got bullied, this really destroyed my confidence. For 2 years I had no real friends and I would cry when I got home and skip alot of school. Now I'm in 10th grade, and I feel like a different person when I'm at school than when I'm at home. I sit in class and listen to music. I know some people but don't talk to people. I feel like I'm always being judged. I like to talk to people sometimes but usually I just sit and do my work. I don't know what to say to people. I don't want to be fake and talk about things I don't care about. I'm embarrassed of who I was in the past and hate being an outcast. Girls think I'm weird, guys don't really consider me a friend. I'm not interesting at all at school. I have interests but I feel like I don't know how to express myself. I feel like I can't get out of this loop. It makes me sad to live like this. All I want is someone who really understands me. I really don't like myself. Sometimes I question why I am even living