This is all so sudden... Ive never lost anyone so close to me before...i just found out two days ago she has the cancer.... Im so scared bc all i can think of is my mom is gonna die... Ever since i found out..... My whole life feels different .... Like a dark feeling.... I cant look at this positive at all... Im already depressed as it is.... My body feels like its physically hurting... It only been two days and it feels like its been forever... Her and my dad have been together almost thirty years now .. And im so scared for him too... My family real doesnt all come together.... We love each other... But were not so mushy about it... Everyone is telling me to spend as much time as i can.. But when i go see her she is sleeping and then i end up crying... I cant even comprehend that this is happening... I know it seems like I'm blabbing on .. But idk what to really say .... My fiance is trying to be supportive but i dont think he realizes how much im hurting inside... Btw im 21 year old female.... My mom has fivw grandchildren.... Im just lost for words.. I feel numb... My biggest problem is that all i can think about it preparing for her to die... I just need someone who can tell me whats realistically going to happen... If anybody knows . im sorry idk what else to do at this point.