I was dating this guy for almost a year and we broke because I cheated on him, and I regret cheating on him so much. We decided to get back together 5 months after we broke up and I love him so much. But I'm starting to feel the pain I felt when we were dating, the pain that made me feel that it was right to cheat on him. We never really hang out ever. And I feel that he's embarrassed to be with me in front of his friends. I think about our future and that when he graduates he's going to leave, which scares me. I know I maybe too young to think of this stuff, I'm in grade 10 and I actually would want a future with him, like living together and maybe having a child. I know I will never cheat on him again and it's really hard to explain how I feel. A lot of times he wont text me back when I want to have a conversation with him, and he hasn't been talking to me at school either. I don't think he understands how much feelings I have for him, but perhaps it would be best for me to break up with him. I cry about this a lot because I love him, but I don't know if I should stay with him. Sometimes I think that I shouldn't even be dating anybody because I need to focus on school, and maybe this whole thing is just a big distraction to me? I don't know if this relationship will ever work, but all I know is that I really want it to.